Another day

Well, I had 2 different People in 2 different fetlife groups suggest using cam 4 for the cam show, so Saturday I created an account there and spent about 4 hours waiting for an audience that never happened. Then noticed that the broadcast was to dark and grainy to see so I logged off. Sunday I spent 2 1/2 hours broadcasting without an audience (this time I was more observant and logged off as soon as it got dark). I contacted my former Mistress about my blog and some issues I wanted to discourse with her and have been "invited" to the open house, She said that if I get there then transport home will be arranged, then She told me to be at Her place at 5 to go to the open house at 7 on Tuesday. I will try to get someone to video the dog treats eating there, I want at least the first time to be videoed so I can see it afterwards. If that fails I will try again next weekend. Oh and I will add the cam 4 link to my links here and on fetlife. Maybe down the road I will be "talked" into another show, or like the whole "kat eating dog treats" humiliation enough to do it again :) . Of course with my luck, I will still be trying to do this next year and still need the link, But I am trying to think positively.
 OK there is more I should say, but don't feel like it right know so I'll report back later.
                                                           kat

Nothing I think is good, but you might

OK so a few more years ago then I would like to think about, The only real Mistress I ever had took my safe word away and did something that I still don't like. But it REALLY helped!!!! I still do not like enemas, but thanks to my Mistress back then I learned I could take it, and that if you are real sick they help. So Monday I put a couple of squirts of hand soup and filled the bag, I had to expel 2 before finishing the bag. Afterwards I did 1/2 a bag of just water to get the soup out. My lower belly was loose and jiggly like always, but my upper belly was still hard and kinda squarish. so Tuesday I decided to do another one, and I guess what with all the sexy and dirty things I have been seeing online lately I did something kinda dirty with it. I had to pee when I went in so I put half of that in the bag, then filled it about 3/4 full of very warm water. I was surprised that I got the nozzle in without lube or pain, just a little discomfort. I was also surprised at how I could get it all in and hold it for sometime (probable 10 min). I feel a bit better and my belly seems normal, though my appetite hasn't fully returned. So wile this isn't anything hot,sexy, dirty, humiliating, or something I needed to vent, I thought some of the pervs I hope are reading and enjoying/laughing about would like to know. Besides I need to get used to making blogs about good, bad, and just outside my normal routine
                                     kat

dog treats for the kat

Ok I am a bad kat I forgot to blog when I got home so now I have to make up. Monday my roomate (henceforce know as ch) and I went to the library for the wireless, then to bk for burgers and wifi. Afterwards went to winco, wile there I thought of something humiliating I have been wanting to do since I saw the most beutifull Calico doing it in a preview for one of her movies. That is eating a dog treat biscuit! I suddenly remembered that winco has dog treats and food in bulk. So I went and looked, when I found the size I wanted they were only in a four collered veriety mix, so I got one of each. I had looked for them in boxes before so I was pretty sure that each collor is supposed to be a differant flaveor, Though I don't know what

As far as that goes I don't know if I will like any of them. the pic to the left is all of them togather. The idea is that since 1) you can only do something the first time only once, I want to mack sure it gets recorded. 2) any humiliation is more humiliating if someone sees. I am planning to do it on webcam! Ok so the next thing to mention is that when I went though the checkout, the checkout girl said it was 6 cents,(can't get them on foodstamps :( ). Then she said "Oh, that's good", turned a little pink in the cheeks and said " I ment the price, not the tast. I don't know about that.". So I asked if she wanted to, and she repeated that she didn't know and added that she had never tryed them. I told her I would let her know if the tasted good if she wanted to know, her cheecks turned a bit red and her got big. Then she smiled and said she wanted to know! Ok so now I am going to past my fetlife add about this weekend
(I have web cam. I don't know if my mike works though, don't have softwear to test it.
What I would like is to
1) find a place were a bunch of you pervs can watch and comment
(I have yahoo messinger if it do?)
2) have someone record it and either e-mail it to me, or post it
were I can download a copy for myself
3) I would like to KNOW that there is someone(s) seeing my
humiliation (more humiliating that way :) ) so it would be nice
if you are interested to let me know here, durring, or both :)
What is planed at the moment is just to eat the dog treats I bought at winco just for this (btw interesting conversation with the cheeckout! :) ). If you have something else you would like, I make no promisses, but am willing to see if you can get me to do it :)
I did think about trying to push my scat limit, but I have been a bit sick and don't think I will try it this time around.
I wil check this thread the rest of this week, btw I have allmost no cash, but do have some foodstamp, so any thing else you think I should get before the show should be food related or verry cheep.
You might have noticed I didn't give a time, my roommate leaves about 2:30 pm any time after that that you decide by vote I will do. Allso it can be sat or sun. I will post this and my conversation in my blog ( see link on profile)
thanks kat)

coments here or on fetlife, or questions on formspring exepted

my friday

So Friday was an awesome day! We'll start by going back a bit, so I have been doing a lot of thinking lately starting with trying to figure out why my roommate has been acting so weird lately and finally came to the conclusion that he is being passive/aggressive. I came to that based in part that a LOT of his behaviour is submissive, which lead me to realise that a lot more of MY behavior then I wanted to admit was also. I have known for almost 20 years that I was a switch but this seemed to say that it wasn't a 50/50 split like I thought. After a lot of soul searching, I started listing those I have done something in rl with in both dom and sub categories, the results....... was unequivocal.... domed 3, subed to at least 25! So I looked at who I felt dom or sub to atm d 0 s 8..... So ok the numbers say that I am a sub with a dom side.
 On Wednesday, before making the big discovery (in fact, this is why I was soul searching) I had a big argument with my roommate. I said in my previous blog that 1/2 the reason I created a blog here was to follow bfg's blog, on two of her "adventures" she kept telling herself she wasn't going to, until she did. Well I told myself as I got ready that I wasn't going to, told myself a dozen times as I headed to walmart that I wasn't going to, told myself 3 times between walmart and b&b that I wasn't going to...... I spent at least 20 min walking around an adult bookstore with my hands rucked into my belt at the back. There was something different this time, I wasn't looking to run a risk, I was actively hoping to be raped. I left disappointed to be on my feet, instead of going to the hospital because of being raped (which also implies violence).
 So Thursday I had a long talk to c, Then created this account. I woke up Friday feeling like a large weight had been lifted. I felt good.... I didn't want to get out of bed because I didn't want life to shit all over my good feeling. After getting dressed to run an arend, C said her wanted to go to gateway to eat. So I went there and got lotsa shrimp (real good food for depression!!!! :) ). Then I went for a long walk and found............ A $50 BILL !!!!!!! so Friday was AWESOME

Starting!!!!

Ok to begin, I am not much of a writer. My life sucks and is boring with nothing happening verry often. So don't expect much.
 I mostly joinded blogger for 3 resons; 1) blowflygirl started posting again and I wanted to follow her blogs and not miss anything. 2) I needed a place to vent some about stuff. 3) I want to be like others and have something to say, so now if it happens, I can!
 Allso I have started a formspring account so I can get interated..... er.. I mean ASKED questions and thought that some of the questions might requer long answer. I am going to try to link them and put a box so you can ask from here. If it works feel free to ask anything, I will put up my rules later. Since thy only apply to my answers, not the question, you can start anytime! Oh and you don't have to have an account to ask!
                                                 kat